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 : ZYY, 22, +65. can i be a slug all day?
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Ignorable rants...
written on Wednesday, January 15, 2014 @ 9:31 PM ✈
안녕!
Been sometime since the last time i was here, laptop been down for quite long thus the long hiatus. and nope, i have yet to get it back, so just a few words today with no picture.
Been working for more than a week for now, and i really don't enjoy working, especially under my boss and with also no colleagues around other than him. All the other engineers are all on site with me alone :(
Even lunch had to get the people next door to get it for me, i can't get in the staff canteen :( Awkward stand now, since i am not at the actual company that i am supposed to intern, i am at a site that is completed- reason to why i can't even get in the staff canteen.
Everyday wake up so early in the morning to get to work and not to be late and reached home so late since it is so far away. Now i can't even decide what to eat for lunch,loneliness just creep in sometimes just by thinking about it.
Am i sure that i want to be an engineer? How many engin students did become an engineer in the future, do everyone really know how to calculate all these, am i the only useless one who can't.
Can't help it but those thoughts do pop up once in a while. That is when those 'past thoughts' came in again...
'oh i should have do this this this, do that that. '
I know now is not the time to regret what you didn't do or didn't do your best and just live for the moment, but all these are definitely easier said than done.
I mean who doesn't help but to feel like this when things aren't going in their ways. Only people who are living pretty decent lives would be like too busy enjoying those moments to think back about what has happened. Or not?
Well, i am not too sure about what the others think since i can't read their minds as well. I do tell myself, there are definitely ppl who are feeling/having worse than you, so don't dwell too much on it. And that is when the problem comes in, since it's always 2 sided to everything and that is when my not-so-determined mind went back thinking the rubbish and it's all like a vicious cycle.
Maybe i just have yet to understand myself well enough.
Hopefully i can do so soon?
Hope that the next time i am back it would be Korea trip (again?!?) [ not finish mah, be more patience with me pls:)] or my short trip to China.
Till then.
y2
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Ignorable rants...
written on Wednesday, January 15, 2014 @ 9:31 PM ✈
안녕!
Been sometime since the last time i was here, laptop been down for quite long thus the long hiatus. and nope, i have yet to get it back, so just a few words today with no picture.
Been working for more than a week for now, and i really don't enjoy working, especially under my boss and with also no colleagues around other than him. All the other engineers are all on site with me alone :(
Even lunch had to get the people next door to get it for me, i can't get in the staff canteen :( Awkward stand now, since i am not at the actual company that i am supposed to intern, i am at a site that is completed- reason to why i can't even get in the staff canteen.
Everyday wake up so early in the morning to get to work and not to be late and reached home so late since it is so far away. Now i can't even decide what to eat for lunch,loneliness just creep in sometimes just by thinking about it.
Am i sure that i want to be an engineer? How many engin students did become an engineer in the future, do everyone really know how to calculate all these, am i the only useless one who can't.
Can't help it but those thoughts do pop up once in a while. That is when those 'past thoughts' came in again...
'oh i should have do this this this, do that that. '
I know now is not the time to regret what you didn't do or didn't do your best and just live for the moment, but all these are definitely easier said than done.
I mean who doesn't help but to feel like this when things aren't going in their ways. Only people who are living pretty decent lives would be like too busy enjoying those moments to think back about what has happened. Or not?
Well, i am not too sure about what the others think since i can't read their minds as well. I do tell myself, there are definitely ppl who are feeling/having worse than you, so don't dwell too much on it. And that is when the problem comes in, since it's always 2 sided to everything and that is when my not-so-determined mind went back thinking the rubbish and it's all like a vicious cycle.
Maybe i just have yet to understand myself well enough.
Hopefully i can do so soon?
Hope that the next time i am back it would be Korea trip (again?!?) [ not finish mah, be more patience with me pls:)] or my short trip to China.
Till then.
y2
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“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misconception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgement. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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